Saturday Night

I am sitting in my house listening to my son sleep and thinking about how things "used" to be.  My friends and I, and they know who they are, did alot of things we probably should not have.  On the other hand, if I did not have those experiences, would I be the person I am today?

I do konw that I hope remember what I did so I can keep an eye on the kids, but also understand where they may be coming from.  they are little now, only 4, 21 mos, and 4 mos, but they will be bigger very soon.  As they grow, I'll try to remember what it was like growing up.  Try to remember the insecurity, the periods of having no confidence, the periods when things were going well, the times you were happy, and the times you were sad.  Try to remember what it was like to wonder and obsess about whether a specific girl likes you?  About whether your friends liked you and what was going on.  In the end, we all muddle through, God knows I did.

There were times when I was younger that I really thought things could not be any worse.  I felt like I was a nobody and that nobody cared if I lived or died.  There were other times when I beleive I was the absolute "shit" and nobody could touch me.  Interesting swing and I think, as an adult, its important to remember how you felt as your kids grow up.  Try to remember that they are going through things that, to them, are the most important things that could ever happen to them.  They are thinking about things that, to them, mean life or death.  They are stressing about who to ask to prom or homecoming.  They are worried about whether a certain boy or girl likes them.  They are wondering if the "hello" in the hallway meant something or did it mean nothing at all  Was the Girl messing with you or did she really mean it when she smiled.  Did the boy tap your shoulder on purpose, or did he do it for no reason at all.

Will you make the basketball team?  Will your parents be upset at you if you don't make it?  Should you even keep playing?  I know that I am gonig to try to remember those things as I raise these kids.  I hope that I can remember those things, because I think it will help me relate to them and help them through the issues they may have.

That's all I have.  I ran the second day of my "training" to run a 5K.  I haven't run a 5K since highschool when Ryan Meegan bet me that I could not beat him.  We ran the St. Patrick's Day 5K.  I won.  I haven't even considered doing one since then, but I am going to finish this training and run the 5K.  On a related note, I am down 8 pounds since 1/1/11.  I am at 288.  I want to hit 260 by August 2011.  I see no reason why i can't do that.

Be kind, be well, and be easy.